It’s a popular saying among Christians that our mess can become our message. It’s so amazing how God will take the least likely person and use them for His glory. He certainly did it with the Apostle Paul. Imagine, the man that hated Christians, that hunted, persecuted, even murdered them, being chosen by God as one of His greatest teachers.
To men, that made no sense, but for God, who better than to spread the message of grace than such an incredible living example of redemption? If God was willing to forgive such an awful wretch as Paul, and even made him into one of Christ’s most courageous disciples, there’s hope for all of us.
God also knows that it is the worst of us, those that have been pulled from the lowest pits and have much to be forgiven, that often have the deepest faith. Jesus illustrated that with the Parable of the Creditor,
“There was a certain creditor who had two debtors. One owed five hundred denarii, and the other fifty. And when they had nothing with which to repay, he freely forgave them both. Tell Me, therefore, which of them will love him more?” (Luke 7:41-42 NKJV)
Donny Pauling was a modern day wretch. He grew up as a Pastor’s son, but only saw Christianity as a list of do’s and don’ts. He only focused in on the flaws of his dad’s congregation. He viewed Christians as being judgmental hypocrites and became resentful.
In the mid 90’s, Donny got married when he was a young man in his early 20’s. The Internet was still in its infancy when Donny discovered online pornography. He became addicted and viewed it when his wife was at work and asleep. He heard there was money to made, so he contacted his favorite sites and began producing porn part time.
He kept it a secret from his wife for three years, during which time they had a son. At a Las Vegas porn convention, while supposedly on a business trip, over the phone Donny came clean to his wife. Unlike Donny, she had a relationship with Christ and he knew she could never accept that lifestyle, so he left her and their one-year-old baby to pursue a career in pornography.
That first month alone Donny made fifty thousand dollars. The easy money, sexy women and fast lifestyle was exciting to him. Donny especially got a charge out of flaunting his success as a pornographer in front of his Christian relatives and acquaintances that knew him from his life before and from his father’s church.
As he became more surrounded and consumed by a world of sexual perversion, he grew accustomed to things that at one time had repulsed him. At the porn trade shows and conventions there were always Christians that picketed and preached fire and brimstone. They only led him to despise Christianity even more. However there was one special group called XXX Church that was different. Instead passing judgment, they witnessed directly to the people blinded and trapped by the sex industry with a message of Christ’s mercy and love.
Over time that message broke down Donny’s hatred and he began praying again. That was the start of a new relationship in which he gave his life to Christ, and after nine years in the porn business he walked away. The man that had fallen into a life of sin and destruction and lured many into that same world of darkness now is dedicated to rescuing them from that pit with the gospel.
Donny consistently tells those in the sex business, “There’s nothing you can do to make Jesus love you less.”
Donny has a powerful personal testimony, not only of his own broken family, but with the real stories of many women and men who’ve had their marriages and lives devastated by pornography. Donny shares his story all over the country and even appeared on an episode of Nightline to debate popular porn stars over whether or not pornography is harmful.
Donny’s testimony often puts him in an awkward and difficult position, with many Christians being uncomfortable with his shameful past, while the secular world ridicules his faith, viewing him as a hypocrite. Through it all, Donny remains committed to his mission of raising awareness and helping others break free of porn addiction.
Donny and the porn awareness ministries are quick to point out the shocking statistics of the multitude of men, women and children struggling with porn. Sadly, the numbers are the same for those within the church as those who are not.
Donny is sponsored by Guilty Pleasures, a ministry whose primary purpose is to educate people about the harmful effects of pornography and connect those in need to professional help. They are helping the church lead the way at the porn war front and take back our families from this wicked enemy.
Donny Pauling’s next guest speaking event will be at the Men Advance conference Saturday June 1, 2013 at Sojourn Church in Carrollton, TX. More info about Donny and his ministry can be found at his website donnypauling.net.